Breathe In.....Breathe Out

I'm trying really hard to stay positive and look at the big picture of things. But I'm not going to lie, it's kind of hard for me right now. Especially when I have a little one that is not feeling up to par and has been doing this for most of the day:

Poor girl.
She started getting sick with a fever yesterday afternoon and she just wasn't acting like her cute normal self, so we decided to take her in to the doctor last night. She doesn't have strep, and I think we ruled out appendicitis and H1N1, so we think it's just the basic flu. After a pretty good night sleep, she woke up, threw up once, and has been off and on with seeming to feel well, and then seeming to feel miserable. It's no fun to see your baby like this. Breaks my heart.

To make things worse, we found out the reason our house isn't being built. (For those who are out of the loop, our house and a few others have been sitting for 11 days without anything being done since the framing. Meanwhile, other houses all around us are going up in 25 days or less). Basically, our builders no longer own the property where our house is being built, due to a long story involving fraud, theft and murder.

Seriously.

Some woman, who had millions of dollars, went to jail for tax evasion. While in jail, her husband and his business partner took $42 million of her money and invested it in land and property when the market was high. Our lot happens to be on some of that land that our builders bought from that husband. Long story short, the husband was murdered on a bad business deal, his partner now owns that land, the woman got out of jail and thinks those guys actually stole her money and she wants it back, which means she wants the land, which means we would be out of a house! She has put down what is called a Lis Pendens, which I think means "lawsuit pending" and basically means our builders are not allowed to do ANYTHING until everything is figured out on her end.

There are much more details to add, but I don't understand it all, so I'll stop at that. Possibilities: The woman will wise up, drop everything and the builders will resume work and finish our house in 15 days (please oh please); OR our builders offer her other pieces of land in return for the ones they have already started on, which could take a while; or it's a lawsuit against her that will take months and months.

We just have to wait and see what pans out. It's hard, because it is completely out of our hands. We can bail out now, but we would lose the $4000 Utah grant, which we really need for a down payment. So right now, we have to wait and see what the next week holds with this woman. Happy Holidays, right? !!!!

So, with a little help from running endorphins, I think the best way to find a happy place right now is to think of everything I am grateful for. 'Tis the season.

1. I love my husband. He has only Hayden's and my best interest at heart. I love that he can be a softie over some things, but he can be super assertive when he has to be, and it has paid off.

2. I love my baby. She is such a funny girl and helps me to be a better person.

3. I love my supportive family, on both sides. They are always there to lend a helping hand or an ear to listen.

4. I love my friends. They are so willing to help in times like these. I really appreciate it.

5. Our Realtor, Jim Cannon, who is fighting for us to get this whole mess figured out.

6. Carl's job. It is a blessing to us. We are so fortunate.

7. Our home right now. It's nice and it keeps us warm during these cold, snowy days.

8. Ella, of course.

9. Warm, gooey brownies from sweet friends down the hall.

10. Having a gym so close that I can use anytime I want (between the hours of 5am and 10 pm)

11. Good people who will actually read this whole post, even though it's a beast.

There are so many things I can put, but I'm tired now of thinking about all of this. I need to go eat the rest of those brownies and find my happy place.

Good things will happen. I just need to stay positive. I know I really do have a good life.